Wow! What a difference a few days and some serious dosing will do for ya

♫ soundtracking “Au-Dela (Live)” by Morcheeba http://sdtk.fm/wMmJJw

♫ soundtracking “My Love” by The Bird and the Bee http://sdtk.fm/AeoNWy

What have I missed? Hummmmmmmm

You know whilst under the weather, why is it called under the weather? I came up with the best blog ideas. But guess what. I can’t think of any of them right now! LOL, Oh well…..

Ok, I don’t know what it was about the last episode of the US version of one of my favourite British tele-dramas., SHAMELESS. But, I’m hooked. No pun intended buddy. lol I am tickled. With that said, I have added it to my list of watchable television. …….

whooooa, now, wait a minute…..

But I watch a lot of computer. So how does that differ? Does it differ?

Humm….

Commercial television ….. “commercials, hence more messages that you are too: insert whatever.

Internet viewing ……no commercials, but the product placement in the now commercial free programmes still bombard.

And now, I’ve lost my train of thought.

Oh, ♫ soundtracking “Let It Fall” by Lykke Li http://sdtk.fm/zDABEy

Also added to the viewing schedule.

I ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ A FINE FRENZY just sayin’

♫ soundtracking “Rangers” by @AFineFrenzy http://sdtk.fm/wq5wic

On FB this morning a question was asked… Which alien race in the Star Trek universe would you like to be?
It took me all but a minute to come up with a Vulcan-Bajoran. I mean, Vulcans can’t just have the hots for humans. Think about it!!!!

And because I’m a Trek nerd….
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vulcan_(Star_Trek)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bajoran

Oh, you know the other day I just wanted…NEEDED a milkshake. I decided to go to Wendy’s (I can’t get sued for this can I?) and received the BEST chocolate shake I have had in a looooong time! It was the best thing i have had in my mouth in DECADES It was also the most expensive chocolate milkshake I’ve ever had. As good as it was, and I do mean it was good. It was I want a cigarette after having it good! I will have to save that for treat/cheat day. I could become addicted.

I am loving her voice….♫ soundtracking “Little Bit” by Lykke Li http://sdtk.fm/ApGPCt

I just love this blogging thing! You know what guys, I’ve sat here; and, through the use of images and music; I’ve written a blog….shared bits of my day, tiny little glimpses into my mind with you……that blows me away and THANK YOU for allowing me to do so!

♫ soundtracking “World Spins Madly On” by The Weepies http://sdtk.fm/w7907E

#sixseasonsandamovie
#nbccommunity
#troyandabed

Here’s something for you. Had a buddy text the other day complaining that he hasn’t gotten any hits on this singles hook up site. ZOMG why is ♫ soundtracking “Masquerade” by Berlin http://sdtk.fm/yeOGmY playing…

So I ask him, “how are you selling yourself?”
He proceeds to read the advert, I doze off, I hear a “are you there?” and I answer (I really did doze off or became distracted by something bright and shiny.)
That’s your problem…the advert is too long. This isn’t match.com or eharmony. Your goal is to get laid, yes? Well say what you want and this longs walks and favourite book “The Bible.” is shyte! Say what you want…. Well, we (I) trimmed the fat from the advert and made it say what he wanted. Well, let’s just say, he is as happy as a queer in Babylon (LOL, I’m having QAF flashbacks)

What now????? ♫ soundtracking “Beautiful Drug (feat. Jana Andevska)” by @ThieveryCorpDC http://sdtk.fm/xFDxve

♫ soundtracking “Dancing With Myself” by Nouvelle Vague http://sdtk.fm/wCrhAf

I ❤ the Avengers. Before this Ultimate universe, re-booted crap! THERE I SAID IT!!!!

well I think my work here is done…..

a pui tardi.

I’ll play myself out…♫ soundtracking “Day After Day” by Pretenders http://sdtk.fm/zWo586

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Query: to whom does the Father Confessor confess?

Well, to whom?

Now hang on, I’m not talking confessions like. “I’ve killed 27 people and their bodies are in the root cellar” kind of confessions. I’m talking about…..

“Hey!”
“Hello”
“Do you like the new “rebooted” universes the comics are creating now.”
“I am adapting. I do find it somewhat confusing as I read many of these titles as a kid and well, I’m still getting used to a black Aqua Lad.”
“Yeah, I know what you mean.”
“Nevertheless, I may add a title or two to a collection. It is the ideal time since the reboot universe is still in its infancy.
“yeah, me too. I like to be spanked with a wooden spoon while wearing wellies. Is that weird?”
“I am especially interested in The Legion of Superheroes.”
“Did you hear what I said?”
“I chose to ignore that.”

WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THAT????

ROFL

a pui tardi

What???? Just what am I to do with that.

Is it weird? The act itself, no. The fact that you told me, yes.

Wow

Americans: Happy Thanksgiving / Everyone else: Hey! :-)

THIS IS NOT A RACE RANT JUST SAYIN’

However, me being the patak (I speak Klingon better than I write it) I am, let me ask my American brothers and sisters and transgendered folk just what are we celebrating?

This is how I remember it….

Pale faces coming to these lands, telling the natives, who have lived here….well FOREVER….well as long as they can remember that how they live is WRONG. That their(pale face) way was the only true way, the RIGHT way.

Pale faces telling the natives that the way they worship and commune with THEIR higher power is WRONG. And that their (pale face) way was the only true way, the RIGHT way.

Then after they came, the natives started to die…illnesses they have never seen….are killing them. But that’s THEIR FAULT, because of how THEY lived. That is until they (pale face) came and told us … That their way was the only true way, the RIGHT way. Oh, their God is punishing those who refuse him.

That is what I seem to remember.

Hey, isn’t gluttony a sin? So, I guess this holiday is sanctioned by God and the rules are suspended?

I don’t know. This is where I went…..where I was lead to go, and now I am done!

An Affirmation of Hope

Hope, fragile, luminous & buoyant, fill me now,
bring your gifts of optimism, faith & positivity,
grow strong within me, today and everyday,
increase my connection with those around me,
balance my moods with a lightness of being,
and touch all those I meet, with blessings.

Hope, fragile, luminous & buoyant, fill me now,
humble and expand my heart, with openness,
making me compassionate, relaxed & kind,
aware of the many blessings I have each day,
making of me a better, more human, person.
Hope is a gift that passes through me, to others.

Moderation

Moderation Prayer

Bless me with the gift of moderation,
able to see clearly, when enough is enough, willing to take only what I need, use only what I must, live on the Earth, in awareness of my actions’ impact.

Bless me with a moderate spirit that does not waste.

Bless me with easy acceptance of this way of being.

Copyright Abby Willowroot 2009

Happiness = Security … or does it?

Wow, once more into the fire.

Would you, could you agree that happiness = security? That without “security” we can’t be happy?

Well, my “security” was taken away today.

(The details aren’t important as they would mean nothing to you. Not being mean or secretive, just telling the “truth.”)

Yet, I’ve not noticed a noticeable drop OR rise in my “happiness.” So is that a valid equation? I have no idea if this loss of “assumed security,” if it is a permanent or temporary situation. However, permanent or temporary the situation, ” ‘life’ will go on.”

But, I’m reflecting on conversations and observations and things are making me say hummm…

Now, one voice is calmly whispering in my ear “the universe will take care of her own.”

“your happiness level hasn’t changed because your “true” security hasn’t been taken away.”

Ok, that is one voice. The other is running the gambit. Dealing with an entire range of human emotions…..so many that I can not/am not equipped to handle them.

Anger (I am always angry. My mother says that I was an angry baby. Not a bite you angry, just this disapproving scowl. But this is different. This time I am more angry with myself for the poorly conceived decisions I made and honestly for listening to ANYTHING except my head. )

Fear (as to the next step. Where do I go from here? )

Confusion (oh my, what to do, what to do?)

Faith (I never thought I was a person of faith. I just took it for granted that if I did “a” and “b” , “c- would happen.” but, now there is something…. Can’t put a pin on it, but….)

Blame (I always go there when I do not want to accept my role in whatever less than helpful situation I find myself. But eventually I realise that I must bear the brunt on the responsibility. And the realisation that those who wrong others and gain from that will rarely accept responsibility – so why blame them?)

But of them all I am still “happy.” Well as “happy” as I allow myself. But you know what, my happiness level is the same today as it was yesterday. (well that’s not the truth, I am in a much better mood than yester-morning. But that pissy mood was banished after Thomi and her workout. Perhaps, yesterday was a trial run…instead of RE-acting today, I PRE-acted yesterday.) But all in all, I am no more “happier” than the “norm.”

So what gives? My “assumed security” is gone, yet my “happiness” is the same. How can that be?

Am I “willing” myself happy? Or is this some type of shock?

Oh well, a pui tardi!

I am of peace…most of the time.

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May all beings…

May all beings everywhere, with whom we are inseparably interconnected, be fulfilled, awakened and free. May there be peace in this world and throughout the entire universe and may we all together complete the spiritual journey.

Dharma Heartland

In all my future lives,

May I never fall under the influence of evil companions;

May I never harm a single hair of any living being;

May I never be deprived of the sublime light of Dharma.
¤Traditional Tibetan Prayer¤

A pui tardi

If you wish to move in the One Way do not dislike even the world of senses and ideas. Indeed, to accept them fully is identical with true Enlightenment. The wise man strives to no goals but the foolish man fetters himself. There is one Dharma*, not many; distinctions arise from the clinging needs of the ignorant. To seek Mind with the [discriminating] mind is the greatest of all mistakes.

- Seng-tsan, “Verses on the Faith Mind”

* Dharma in the Buddhist scriptures has a variety of meanings, including “phenomenon”, and “nature” or “characteristic”.

Dharma also means ‘mental contents’, and is paired with citta, which means heart/mind. In major sutras (for example, the Mahasatipatthana sutra), the dharma/citta pairing is paralleled with the pairing of kaya(body) and vedana (feelings or sensations, that which arise within the body but experienced through the mind).

Dharma means the source of things and Truth.

Dharma is also used to refer to the teachings of the Buddha, not in the context of the words of one man, even an enlightened man, but as a reflection of natural law which was re-discovered by this man and shared with the world. A person who lives their life with an understanding of this natural law, is a “dhammic” person, which is often translated as “righteous”.

The Buddha would teach the Four Noble Truths, the Noble Eightfold Path, the Three Marks of Existence, and other guidelines in order to achieve the freedom and liberation from suffering.

Public transpo: Faith, dreams and stuff

Yawn, by the gods beneath us, last night was one filled with odd (to say the least) dreams. Of the all, the oddest was Alex, Meike and I were in their backyard playing and then out of the blue, we were overrun by vermin and snakes….asps, I think. That wasn’t the odd part. (what drew, you are often overrun by vermin and snakes, remind me to tell you the story….) the odd thing that Meike jumped into my arms, Alex onto my back and they looked at me and said just go up. With that said, we flew away. I am surprised that I didn’t drop one of them. once we landed, it was as if nothing out of the ordinary happened. I have a dream book, I’ll research this and report back to you.

Faith: an eavesdro…, naah, an overheard conversation. Do I have faith in anyone but myself? Do I have faith in myself? Listening to these two people on this morning and hearing how forcefully they proclaim their faith and how, for them without it they would be lost. Just left me wondering. I know that my mother, the Lady Meredith, has faith and some to spare. I marvel at how she lives by faith. Of course, I am wondering how can I, a man reared by a woman whose faith is her cornerstone, seem to lack that same steadfast devotion and well faith. My dad was the same. He lived by faith. Well, I guess the nut (hehehehe) can fall far from the tree.

A few months ago, Loreleila posted a video asking if a leopard can change its spots. Well, I’ve been thinking about that during my dream state. I make a funny here…although physically, w/o altering his DNA those spots can not change. However, I believe that through constant….hummm work and dedication, behaviours can be changed. The “natural” instinct is there, but I believe that those, “less than helpful” instincts can be suppressed. But as I write this, I am left with another question, but I’ll keep that to myself for a while.

It is not the gospel of Thomas, but in the Christian bible, isn’t there a scripture about not hiding your light under a bushel…or something like that. You know…..

When does one say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH? Once, again I feel as if I am being placed under a microscope and I am done with being your lab experiment. I’ve said it before, I am done.

Oh, why does it seem as if some delight in pissing people off? Why, when we feel that righteous passion, do we try to “make” people into something they are not? Why can some people freely accept that what is done is done. That as I said yesterday, the jug is broken – shattered to pieces and no matter how much reflection, how much wishing, that jug will hold no more water? When do we decide to just say…screw it and walk away?

My Lady, I know I said that I would have a draft for you today. I am, with your permission, going to push that back to the weekend. I am stuck. There is so much to discuss, that this has turned into a thesis. Edit, edit, edit

I am needed in another place in time, so we shall “speak” again soon.