A few hrs early, but it’s in the bag…been put to bed.
Gearing up for…..
Category: Loreleila
Well, the last blog of 2011! What did I do today?
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And I’ve already ridden the roller coaster of emotions.
I awoke smiling, humming and then singing ( 99.9% of the time that’s how I greet the world. Now keep in mind, that is only when I am alone. If others are around…DON’T BREATHE TOO HEAVILY OR I WILL CUT YOU DOWN WITH AN ICY GLARE).
But now, as I did the morning washing up (which was light as all I had was a lightly toasted bagel, a thinly sliced, lightly peppered English cucumber and a cuppa) I burst into tears. Why? For a brief moment, I caught a whiff of my mothers scent and felt…..something.
Memories, this time last year…..she and I were walking the streets of Atlanta, looking at the snow.
Alrightythen
Wow
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Let’s see if I can lighten the mood a bit.
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the photo…..
the “header”…….. “sad, but very true…perspective”……
and the discussion that ensued….
I am removing the names to “protect” the innocent…
G+ guy - ok this is just wrong, I get what you are saying but come on, not right now! Honestly I know their (sic) are millions of kids dying over seas, I know that, but to take away from this man’s legacy and the lose we have sustained is totally inconsiderate. This was someone’s father, brother, friend, mentor!!!
9:58 PM
Me - I’ve not taken anything away from his legacy. That can’t be done.
10:05 PM
Me - query, When would have been a good time to post it? Despite the fact that he was a husband, mentor, etc. all of the things you said does not take away from the fact that more airtime was given to his death than any of the “real” concerns of the planet… unemployment, the rise in HIV infection among women and peoples of colour, global warming, domestic abuse, you know …. That’s why I added “perspective” to the comment.
10:11 PM
Me – But thanks for your perspective. Gotta love a country that allows a “free” flow of thought and discourse.
10:12 PM
G+ guy- ok do you know how to solve any of those issue? if so then let up talk about it, if not their is no need to talk about it
10:13 PM
Me – Ahh, but if we don’t talk about these issues, ideas can’t be formed. And yes, I do have ideas on how some of our serious social issues can be addressed. Now, what ideas do YOU have on improving race relations? He asked a question about interracial relationships earlier in the day.
Ahhhh, I believe we have started up that smelly creek.
10:19 PM
G+ guy – I do not; This is the reason why I do not talk about it! I am not in the position to do anything about it; as of yet, it is not something that is on my mind. This seems like something which interests you so I recommend you get a plan, put it together, and get started on it. If I can financially support you I will, if not get those who can, but for God sakes do not build your platform on the heels of someone elses legacy.
10:28 PM
Me – what platform? I am not running for office. I am not trying to curry favour with anyone. I am, as you have done, voicing my opinion (in images). Sir, I am not in the business of being right or wrong. (Hi Cathy!) I just like to remind folk that there are larger issues abound. And I believe, that although I may not be able to “do” something to fix an issue, but if I can make someone else pause and say, “I have an idea that may work,” then a step toward a solution may evolve. Quien sabes amigo mio? Our exchange may have lit a fire in someone’s mind…. 
Thanks!
Thanks!
10:36 PM
G+ guy – I do not mean to come off as a dick! I just believe if you want someone to understand your heart, just tell them, regardless of how you tell them, only the ones who want to listen will!
10:36 PM
Me- I didn’t/don’t think you were/are being “a dick.” You expressed your opinion. I’m cool with that.
Your thoughts?
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Hi, hello! Hiya!
Well, in two days I’ve participated in two life marking events; a fiftieth wedding anniversary celebration (yeah, there are a few people who take their wedding vows seriously) and a birthday party for a five year old girl. Both were ….WOWZERS. To see a living testament of love, fidelity and commitment was and still is amazing. On the other hand, to see the wonder and awe in the eyes of a five year old and then in a flash, see her grow from child to young girl, to woman…wow.
Moving on…
My UK guru has done it again. What has she done? She taught me a lesson. The lesson she “taught” on expectations. I’m driving the expressway— BOOYAKITTY! Expectation – My read on her “lesson”; if one puts an expectation on something or someone, a “limit” has been set, opinions start to form – thoughts start to form – helpful or unhelpful thoughts/opinions. So, mentally we have already set ourselves up before an event even happens.
(It’s actually more profound in my head as opposed to on screen). That’s all! I just thought My UK guru has done it again.
next……
Grief. Wow, I am always amazed at how freely people give advice about grief. Hey how about this…just leave the grieved alone (unless they’re suicidal or something.). But offering anecdotes about how you got over this or that. Well, yippie bloody doo for you! And as I write this the thought comes….the level of grief, I believe, is proportionate to the level of love, adoration and respect one has for the decedent. and now the voice is gone
Oops, I’ve to go. I’m needed in another place in time.
Ciao ciao.
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Be authentic, do not blame others for your feelings yet do not deny, ignore or reject them. Embrace your anger and allow it to burn away your illusions about yourself and others. It is a refiners fire. ~Cathy Preston
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This was left as a comment to a post, but it deserves to be more than a footnote.
No, not a seed.
upon another glance, one may say a glacier.
but it is a three wick vanilla candle.
WARNING: PROFANITY I use the “f” word a few times.
I guess I should be “pleased.” I got through the holidays and the new year…unscathed (not really, but I was able to force “happiness” which should not have to be forced). But, I should have known that it was too good to be true.
I can feel it.
Am I lucky?
At least I know when it is going to happen. The “normal” dreams are a precursor and then comes the feeling of “I just don’t give a fuck.” wow, wow, wow.
However, I have had a few “not normal” ones as well. One this morning, the original salon mates (Oz, Cathy and modi). LOL, Loreleila seated in the centre with Oz at her right and, I on the left..just sitting…conversing, writing, drawing, playing some type of game…then this woman…..with snow white hair… a few strands of black…just enough to see it….comes and decided that it is time for us to eat…she demands Oz have a slab of some creature and a giant glass of ale….then it gets fuzzy. But I do remember the end…she looked at us…those eyes….and reminded each of us that we must bring about change….somehow….it is up to us.
(Cathy, I guess she figured that we didn’t really need to eat because she focused on Oz’s dietary requirements. What’s up with that?)
Another “hint” the odd feelings that … Well that is a bit personal… Hehehehehe….. ARRRRGH.
I HAD A DREAM THAT THIS DAY WOULD COME.
All I want to do is go home.
All I want to do is to curl up and just sleep….a good year or two.
No, not sleep, just drift….
I am at the end of my rope.
No, not the suicidal end
Just…..done
I am tired of fighting
I am tired of being involved in the fights of others
I am tired of looking for answers to question that perhaps can not be answered
I am tired of screaming children AND adults
I sit here in the dark…waiting
Waiting for what
Who the hell knows
Sanity….
Lol, and who the hell defines what is sane for me
Ahh, they do
But who are “they”
Chaos and order
Jumbled thoughts
I think about the trees
The bay
The fact that I just got over a bloody FOUR DAY MIGRAINE
No job
No money (well that isn’t quite true)
No leads
Hummm
We are the cause of this cold snap
The intensity, severity
How many people died last night because of us
Hell, how many anythings died last night because of us
We are killing ourselves….slowly and don’t seem to fucking care.
Live it up
Buy buy buy
Consume consume
Waste waste
Heat up the planet
Pollute the air
Contaminate the soil…the water
NOW YOU ARE MOVING TO OUTER SPACE…WHAT THE FUCK
This kid is bitching because of his grades. Because his school system isn’t on a 10 point grade scale, his chances of getting into the school of his choice are diminished. Hummm, could not have anything to do with his 2.7 gpa
2.7 geez, a “high” C or “low” B. Back in the day…that was just unacceptable.
Study buddy.
Can’t make order in my head……
Right now it is like looking in a fun house mirror
The images are distorted, twisted
And I am not on anything, just sleep and whatever this is….
Drug combos…the bad ones, that came to me while thinking about Loreleila’s vlog/video. (I tried to upload the Concerta one, for some reason it wouldn’t. Who knows why)
Wronged…..
I have been wronged by so many.
Exes who COULDN’T control their carnal needs.
Employers who are easily swayed by big tits and the promise of a hand job.
“Friends” who because of their general level of stupidity and ignorance are threatened.
The racist bitch who …. Oh my
I have been wronged by that ill bred, low born, clod. THE backstabing twit. The unlettered country oaf, who thinks that because she went to a now defunct trade school (with no accrediation mind you) decades ago that she is “highly qualified” yet, she can’t …. And now claims to be a writer. Bitch, you can’t construct a simple sentence.
The Christian who has condemed me to hell. GUESS WHAT BITCH, I AM IN HELL EVERY FUCKING DAY. THIS PLACE…..THIS IS HELL.
Wow, wow wow
We feel wronged because we just can’t believe that someone in whom we put some measure of trust could betray “hurt” us. Especially when we have not “hurt” them.
WAIT A BLOODY MINUTE……….. What if we did and we didn’t know it?
Wow
I’ve tried the Tao today…..just not working. Looked for my passages in RTO….nope…
And the other texts that usually provide me some measure of comfort… Nyet, nein, no ain’t working today.
YOU KNOW WHAT……
I guess this is just supposed to be.
I know that I’ll rant, rave, break something, swear…but eventually balance will return.
But you know what, my greatest fear…other than being impaled (yeah odd, not being shot, poisoned….just impaled)…that I won’t come back and I am…..
Oh well, no need to worry about that until it happens.
There is no peace.
When I started this, it was dark out…the sun is rising
So we shall see, what crap will be served up today.
I guess I need to go to the head. I have to tinkle. I will wait until the last possible minute.
wow
I am really fucked guys….. Lol, but, right now I don’t care.
Oh, have I told you ….thanks?
the WILL and the WORD
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It is queer how inspiration comes. All it took to inspire – no – to bring that which was buried to the surface was a simple question. Thank you!
I started this Thursday, I think and since then a lot has happened. “In a day?” yes, in a day.
Had yet ANOTHER eye-opening discussion with Charlie (www.youtube.com/bbbleaver) WOWZERS! The talent and insight…just thinking about the discussion gives me a renewed sense of purpose. So look for a colab. I am really excited about that.
Watched my UK guru’s channel (www.youtube.com/Loreleila) “Jesus the Philosopher.” Another BOOYAKITTY. I am anxious to watch it again and you know that I am going to have “oodles” of questions and observations.
Today is a blah kinda day. Not a “bad” blah, just blah. I think I am having beet withdrawals. I haven’t had any in a week.
I am experimenting with different routes and bus schedules. After posting “Are we working our lives away?,” I’ve decided to make every attempt to work only the hours “assigned” to me. That means no bringing home work from the office or staying late.
