Well I’m over on tumblr, but didn’t want to really post my stuff there. I honestly look at it for the nudity and comic book stuff……just sayin’ and Lord Phoenix’s art as well. 
Here’s a link if you’re of a mind to visit.
You are about to enter …. THE MIRROR UNIVERSE OF vedekdrew
Laters!
Ok, please check out Internal Luminosity for more background. But to fast forward, there were a series of questions at the end of the blog and the last on made me wonder, so, I am using that as a jump off for my return.
Here are my answers ……
How does your brain work?
I went through several answers until I came up with BASIC programming.
What is the desired outcome?
Do I possess the correct tools to achieve desired outcome?
If “Y” the goto line 9
And then at line 9 one set of instructions
If “N” then goto line 20
And at line 20, a completely different set of algorithms ( is that clear? )
When is your thinking most productive?
Oddly, any time of the day. I can be hiking a trail, talking with friends, peeling potatoes, gardening, listening to music, reading http://internal-luminosity.blogspot.com and BOOYAKITTY (that is my version of an Oprah “Aaa-ha” moment).
What do you do when your thinking is challenged or stops working?
I tend to do a few things. I will either walk away from it for a while; or research the issue. Perhaps I’m missing something that would make the picture clearer.
Ask myself, if I am having this much difficulty with…., should I give it more thought?
When all else fails, I sleep on it.
How do you navigate challenges in your thinking?
Frustration
Then I re-evaluate and the BASIC kicks in.
From where do your thoughts originate?
Perhaps this will answer this question.
My thoughts start in space. As they enter the grav field and are slowly pulled to Earth, the fluff and whimsy are burned off. And when it finally finds itself in my head, BASIC kicks in.
You know what? As I look back at that answer….I’m not thinking that’s not right. Where do my thoughts originate? I now query myself, because there have been times when a thought has entered my mind, something that I would never think about as SOP. And I will often stop shake my head and ask, “Where in the hell did that thought come from?” (yeah, crappy grammar and all)
I have to….think about this..BOOYAKITTY, what if our thoughts are just a cumulative….no not the word…an agglomeration of what we’ve read, heard, been told, lived and live..the sum of our life experiences and those a round us?
Now I am here, wondering …and this just came to mind…as situations/opportunities arise, based on life experiences …..naaah
So, what do you think? From where do our thoughts originate? I’m perplexed – or am I?
a pui tardi
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Just saw a post (on Facebook) about fidelity and trust by an old AQUAINTANCE and recalled that’s not how it really happened. But then realised that was how he justified his less than helpful behaviours then, and continues to do so to this day. And then realised that if we “re-write” our past to suit us, how can we ever learn. yeah, deep thoughts for a Sunday morn. Jejejejeje
I am sitting here.
I am waiting.
I am really digging the playlist.
Today is alright in my book.
Frustration has given way to … just being … where I am; when I am.
WOW!
a pui tardi
Ok, something to lighten the mood…
When deciding what category to place a blog, I’ve discovered that I have an extensive list. So, this blog is actually the category links. That might prove interesting. Tell me what you think.
STOP THE PRESSES
I’ve just listed A and B ….I’m going to string you along….tease ya a bit!
Ciao ciao!
😜😃😄😊
All I can say is wow. I’m back. (I know hold the applause). It has been a ROUGH few months. I’ve had a lot to share (and yet, I’ve not “shared.”
Why?
1. Because some of the stuff, ok most of the stuff, has been personal. And I don’t think you would really “care.” Well, you’d care but only so much. I mean afterall I am a stranger to you.
2. You know how my mind works. I am scattered. If I wasn’t able to focus on one thing I’d say that I have ADHD or something. My point, I wouldn’t want to scare you off with the ramblings of a grief stricken, under-employed, frustrated artist. (we are all artists!)
I Love You
Yeah, kinda silly isn’t it? I discovered that if I uttered that simple sentence more often – that peace and harmony can reign supreme in my home. Humm, I love you. Now why didn’t I think of that?
I would think that my presence alone would indicate my emotional state, my level of commitment. I must remember that just because I am an emotional throwback, who does not require the fawning attention, does not mean that…
Credo che si ottiene il punto.
Ciao! Ciao!
A pui tardi!
and to sum all of the less than helpful thing that have happened…I’ve discovered (thanks to Iris G. and I guess, Oprah Winfrey) that..
Forgiveness is giving up the possibility of a better past. –Unknown
It is as simple as that. Well, it is really two-fold. I must remember that… “Forgiveness is giving up the possibility of a better past.
I must also remember that…
“Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word happy would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. It is far better take things as they come along with patience and equanimity.” – Carl Jung
and that by…
“Knowing your own darkness is the best method for dealing with the darknesses of other people.” – Carl Jung
and lastly, you are familiar with my mantra….. aren’t you?
so it was “five-fold.”
a pui tardi
I was sitting this morning, listening to “the best of the 80s.”. Something I downloaded last night.
Now flashbacks notwithstanding,
OMGoddess, Van Halen’s JUMP just came on!
(Where was I?)
And the thought came to me that these past few years have been a re boot. They have been “a test.” There have been lessons in EVERY bloody stone. And what have I learned that will prepare me for whatever…?
i honestly don’t know i am going to explore this today. i may handle this in one of two ways. I may just jot “examples” and post them as they come – raw and un edited; or, compile a list and reflect and dissect, sanitise and censor, then share.
“Its all over and I’m standing pretty in this dust that was a city.” nena – 99 Red Balloons
Great goddess, lyrics like that… And the kids today say the same thing about their “music.”
a pui tardi.
Ok, we’re back. i’ve decided to add to the original post. For some reason i think that by doing it this way, it will provide some type of time line.
one thing i discovered is that one can come back from the “brink” and thrive.
modern medicine can do many things, but, NOTHING can take the place of determination and persistence and taking an active role in ones health care regime, oh yeah, faith.
i think i discovered how to sync mobile dafts to the desktop. in the status section, i believe that i have to select, draft. let’s see
The above did not work.
this re boot has also taught me that most times when people say “I don’t mean any harm,” that isn’t true. Why? Because if you consider your words carefully….
i’ve also discovered that the phase “if i were you, i would..” really means..”this is what you should do..”
humm..
Feelings, whether of compassion or irritation, should be welcomed, recognized, and treated on an absolutely equal basis; because both are ourselves. The tangerine I am eating is me. The mustard greens I am planting are me. I plant with all my heart and mind. I clean this teapot with the kind of attention I would have were I giving the baby Buddha or Jesus a bath. Nothing should be treated more carefully than anything else. In mindfulness, compassion, irritation, mustard green plant, and teapot are all sacred. – Thich Nhat Hanh, “Miracle of Mindfulness”
