That I guess is one of the side affects to this reduced blood pressure thing. The increased sensitivity to cold and and a feeling of exhaustion. Neither of which I like. Honestly, I can deal with the exhaustion. But, that is neither here nor there.
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You know I’ve been doing this “examination of emotions” thing. I’ve learned (ok recognised) pettiness. I’ve recognised the “true” meaning of loneliness. (Well as defined by me).
Well today, I experienced… Intolerance.
Today, for a brief moment became the “ugly American.”
Today, in complete frustration, I yelled aloud (whilst on hold) why can’t I speak to someone who speaks English.
Now as I type this I realise a few things. Firstly, the person to whom I spoke, DID speak English. He just had a thick accent. One that, today I just didn’t want to ignore.
Secondly, perhaps I, no, not perhaps; I should not have phoned anyone when I was frustrated and (yeah, I admit it) I was just looking for a reason to snap – but there is a realisation there too.
wait a minute
wait for it
I do not know if this is true. But I am thinking that anger = fear.
I was afraid that the csr (customer service rep) would not resolve my issue and that the error would ending up costing me money that I had no wish to spend. So that fear manifested itself in anger at someone doing his job, to the best of his ability and through no fault of his own was faced with the ugly american called drew.
What have I learned?
Perhaps if I were better able to articulate my concerns…
and if I not been in a less than receptive mind set…
you see where this is going don’t you?
I am going to add something to the equation..
peace and long life