To have strangers, strangers who have been allowed to enter your “world” (or at least one of your worlds,) via glimpses of thoughts posted here or there; “know” you and comment on things long since forgotten and to express…
So, a few questions..
is there a point in time when we “become” our online identities?
is your online identity the “authentic” you or a self perception?
have you ever been called out by a “fan” to prove that you “walk the walk and talk the talk?
have you ever wondered “is this, what I’m doing worth it?” but that then leads to other questions.
i’m just curious.
hummm, now shifting gears…
i am going to admit something that some may have already guessed.
i have issues.
yes, i am aware that if one is alive, one has issues. mine are special… 🙂 😆
but there are times when there is a disconnect -brain – no, tactful brain and mouth. there are times when human behaviour baffles the bejeebers out of me. one would think I was reared by emotionless androids or something.
the other day, someone expressed “love.”
not fully understanding, i tried to gloss over it. it did not make sense. “i must have misunderstood,” i thought.
ok, so i did not misunderstand. continue
“so you’re just going to ignore what I said?”
” ‘thank you’ ???”
“i do not know how to respond.” i really didn’t.
INSERT CHIRPING CRICKETS
to make a longer story shorter, after being told why i was stunned.
as a rule, i don’t tell people how to feel or what to feel it’s not my place to tell anyone how they should feel. in this case. i could not remain silent.
“you do not know me to feel this way. we’ve never met and most likely never will. if my banter and conversations have lead you to believe otherwise, i apologise. but , if you look at it realistically, i am – to you, as you are – to me, a collection of photographs, screen captures and witticisms that don’t even scratch the surface of who we are. for you to say what you said makes no sense to me and continued discussion will only make me uncomfortable.”
that’s the gist of my reply. then the reply to the reply. then I stopped because continued discourse would only add paraffin to the fire.
this is the reason for the above q and a.
but now i am left with questions…not about that – that was just silly. but I wonder how many online “relationships (of romantic nature)” begin as such? there isn’t any way such a thing can last, can it?
heavy sigh…heavy sigh
i’m going to bed.
a pui tardi!