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Six years or somewhere there about..

My life, as I knew it, changed. Wow, milady, talking about a delayed response.

Six years ago or somewhere thereabout, I was given some news that changed my life.

Six years ago or somewhere thereabout, I was told that I was going to die.

No, not by a Gypsy, Magic 8ball or a call from a psychic. I was told this by a team of physicians.

OK, PICTURE THIS. One minute you’re in the shower. You’re downstairs getting ready for Mother’s Day dinner with the family. The next minute, you wake up…in hospital…attached to machines and being probed and poked. Waking up, knowing that something just isn’t right.

Picture it, being told that you have to have this biopsy. You’ve several brain bleeds and what looks like a tumour. WOW, Tumour = cancer = brain = dead. That’s what I’m kinda thinking.  So let’s fast forward shall we. Oh, did I mention, that some how (digging in the dirt where animals poo) I picked up a parasite that is ADDING to the TBI (Traumatic Brain Injury)

Biopsy done…insert medical term..another medical term…inoperable.

Meetings, consultations, tests.

Weeks later, I’m home. I’m home, to die, with a satchel of meds. One to stop seizures. One to thin the blood. One to stop the parasite. One for blood pressure. One for something else that I can’t honestly remember. One, that, almost hastened my trip to the underworld.  All totalled, I was, at one point taking over 20 medications. NO BUENO!

Now, everyone around me has had their lives affected. Holiday plans put on hold. Constant monitoring because I couldn’t be left alone..Fall risk here.

Vomiting, constant pain, no energy, NOTHING. Meals were…interesting. The Lady Donna did her best to find foods that I could eat. No that’s not correct; food that I could keep down.

All the while, life continues at it usual pace. I’m waiting though…”You may be here Christmas,” was all I could hear.

 

To be continued…perhaps later today, perhaps tomorrow I’ll talk about having to tell friends and acquaintances…

 

take care

 

 

 

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A decision made and one I hope to keep.

With that last blog “Status update becomes a blog,” I’ve made yet another decision. I’m really tired of being bombarded by the less than helpful images and general “news” of the world on my timeline/feed/whatever the hell it’s called, so I am going to change what I want to see on my timeline/feed/whatever the hell it’s called. I’m going to change what I post on my timeline/feed/whatever the hell it’s called. Bye bye, CNN, ABC and the like. I ❤️ ya Huffpost, but you gotta go. Let me put it this way. If it’s not music related, family related, garden related and basic general stuff; I’m not going to post it. After all I don’t and people should not get their “news” from Facebook, Twitter, Flickr and the like.

We’ll see how this works..

✌️ my siblings from another mother✌️

Greetings and well met!

Hey! How are you?
I am forever trying to get the most out of my blogging experience ….and failing miserably. But, I’ve another idea.

first

In my mind, before the lights turned on, or what I perceive as a moment of clarity, more like a “pagh’tem’far.”

my blog does not have to be paragraphs long to communicate what my “heart” needs to say.

I can use as many or as few words as I want.

So, with that said, I’ve another ……

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so here’s what I’m gonna do…

38 days – 38 post
Some may be a word.

Some a long rambling story that has no meaning to anyone but the teller and those present

a pui tardi
THANK YOU!!!
Grazie!

I am…of peace.

Random “vedekdrew/Drew” trivia, part one of ???

If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
Trick question.

What does your latest text message from someone else say?
It’s already 80 here and of course I’M BOILING!!!

Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
It depends on my mood

If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
One of three things, either gardening, looking at the sky or taking pictures.

Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
Behind….sometimes I’ll snap a gpom

What does your URL mean?
It’s my online identity. It comes from Star Trek: Deep Space Nine. A “Vedek” (comparable to a Cardinal or a Bishop) is the second highest level of the Bajoran religion, also make up the Vedek Assembly, the committee which is responsible for the spiritual issues of the Bajoran people. And Drew, well that’s another identity. 🙂

Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
Yes, one Summer almost every week-end

Who is your celebrity crush?
I have a “man crush” on Scott K. Foley. I also adore Kate Mulgrew

How do you vent your anger?
Depends on what or at whom I am angry.

Do you have a collection of anything?
I collect post cards

as promised – a story of sorts

A few days ago, I posted a picture of a Rosary. (somewhere, I can’t recall where but here it is, just in case,

20131211-152824.jpg As I started to make more and more of them for my Catholic friends, I began to study the science (there is a science behind everything) and the symbolism of the Rosary. I am not going to bore you with my interpretation of the available data. That isn’t my place. What I will share is my realisation that the items that make the Rosary have only the “power” given to them by man. I also thought what it all boils down to is, in my opinion, a way to focus thought.

Well, I’ve needed a wee bit of help focusing of late, but my …non-subscription to mainstream religions, forbade my using a cross (crucifix). So what’s a bloke to do?

“Use a token, a symbol with which you identify,”

that’s what the little voice said.

So, I gathered together my focus stones.
A little Tigers Eye: Tigers eye is often used in feng shui jewellery for its protective properties. Tigers eye can also help clear confusion and attract a more clear and balanced state of mind.

My birthstone – Amethyst – The deep purple colour of the amethyst resonates with the higher chakras, or energy centres of the human body – the third eye and the crown chakras. This is why amethyst is used for mediation, as well as to open the blocks to the flow of higher knowledge.

I threw in a ruby or five to overcome exhaustion and lethargy. Rubies are said to stimulate circulation and amplify energy and vitality to the whole system. I’m going to gloss over the aphrodisiac attributes of rubies.Ruby’s intense energy sharpens the mind, bringing a heightened awareness and excellent concentration. It promotes a courageous attitude, and may increase one’s success in controversies and disputes. The ruby is also said to help reduce fear of the paranormal and evil. It banishes nightmares and guards against psychic and psychological attack. It is a shielding crystal, protecting the home from fire and intruders, and is good to wear discreetly to stay safe at night.

and last but not least, some black onyx to provide a supportive, strong and stable energy. It can help one persevere and keep the mind clear and calm. Black onyx can also help one stay focused on real priorities, as well as trust their inner voice.

strung these stones together whilst reciting the Litany against fear….so this is what I came up with and ….

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The WORDS are not mine. They’re taken from on of my favourite films, DUNE. I’ve always loved the Bene Gesserit. I’ve found some measure of comfort from these WORDS, by using this ritual, focusing on stones.

A few things..

Hi!

I really do appreciate those new subscribers. You folk are the best! Of, course those guys and gals who have been there/here from the beginning, you are the crème de la crème of followers ✌️😀😃😺

HEALTH UPDATE
I’m still a medical fascination. I don’t really know what else to say other than, it’s not the best…Goddess knows, it’s not the worst, but, my “way of life” noooooooo, the “way I lived” has changed! Has it changed for the better? I don’t know. I guess that is something that….only time will tell 🙂

The Universe takes care of her own.

I’ve been super excited, super bummed for the past few days. A friend, a close friend of mine returns home tomorrow to have his worst dream realised and, honestly, I’m not really up to offering any support. It’s not that I don’t want to offer it. It’s that I just do not have it in me. I am drained, in ways I didn’t think possible.

I have a bunch of “fears” associated with this reunion as well. Now, let’s see how I can say this without sounding like a twat.
As we, individuals, navigate our way through life, lessons are learned.
As we learn these “life lessons” our experiences, our way of interacting with our community changes.
As we incorporate these changes into our lives, we “evolve.

What if, because of separation our paths have diverged so much, that continued association would be counterproductive?
I am recalling how the last reunion went….not fondly, but not horribly either. Oh well, there is no need to borrow trouble.

Let’s see, what else?
Well, as some of you know, my mother, the woman from whose loins I sprang, died a few years ago. Her death left a hole in my soul that can never be filled. More recently, the Lady Donna, my “Ivory mother” died…in front of us…no warning. Another lurch, my world torn asunder, another hole, irreparably ripped in my soul. Wow, two of the most important women in my life gone…in the blink of an eye. I grieve, but it is more important that I live up to their legacies.

With certain realisations, my muse has returned. So, I’ve been freezing moments in time! I’ve been playing with colour -electronic style. And film, I’ve shot a few rolls of film. (I hope they come out well.) I’ll post them on my Flickr page.

Hey, something just occurred to me. I do not believe that anyone has ever answered a question asked ages ago; “To whom does the Father confessor confess?” But as I ask it again, I’m thinking that it’s probably much like “to whom does a therapist talk when he/she is troubled?”

I’ve decided to get up and go out. I it make take me an hour to get there, but I want to eat — to have a bite or two of something out. (I don’t say “eat” anymore because…..)

So, I’ll post snaps later. Fill you in on my sojourn to nutritional bio-matter. And anything else that comes to mind.

whoa did I mention that I’m considering a name change for the blog? No? Well, I am….I think it’s time for a change.

A pui tardi!

I am of peace 99.9% of the time. 🙂

Wow! What a difference a few days and some serious dosing will do for ya

♫ soundtracking “Au-Dela (Live)” by Morcheeba http://sdtk.fm/wMmJJw

♫ soundtracking “My Love” by The Bird and the Bee http://sdtk.fm/AeoNWy

What have I missed? Hummmmmmmm

You know whilst under the weather, why is it called under the weather? I came up with the best blog ideas. But guess what. I can’t think of any of them right now! LOL, Oh well…..

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Ok, I don’t know what it was about the last episode of the US version of one of my favourite British tele-dramas., SHAMELESS. But, I’m hooked. No pun intended buddy. lol I am tickled. With that said, I have added it to my list of watchable television. …….

whooooa, now, wait a minute…..

But I watch a lot of computer. So how does that differ? Does it differ?

Humm….

Commercial television ….. “commercials, hence more messages that you are too: insert whatever.

Internet viewing ……no commercials, but the product placement in the now commercial free programmes still bombard.

And now, I’ve lost my train of thought.

Oh, ♫ soundtracking “Let It Fall” by Lykke Li http://sdtk.fm/zDABEy

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Also added to the viewing schedule.

I ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ A FINE FRENZY just sayin’

♫ soundtracking “Rangers” by @AFineFrenzy http://sdtk.fm/wq5wic

On FB this morning a question was asked… Which alien race in the Star Trek universe would you like to be?
It took me all but a minute to come up with a Vulcan-Bajoran. I mean, Vulcans can’t just have the hots for humans. Think about it!!!!

And because I’m a Trek nerd….
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vulcan_(Star_Trek)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bajoran

Oh, you know the other day I just wanted…NEEDED a milkshake. I decided to go to Wendy’s (I can’t get sued for this can I?) and received the BEST chocolate shake I have had in a looooong time! It was the best thing i have had in my mouth in DECADES It was also the most expensive chocolate milkshake I’ve ever had. As good as it was, and I do mean it was good. It was I want a cigarette after having it good! I will have to save that for treat/cheat day. I could become addicted.

I am loving her voice….♫ soundtracking “Little Bit” by Lykke Li http://sdtk.fm/ApGPCt

I just love this blogging thing! You know what guys, I’ve sat here; and, through the use of images and music; I’ve written a blog….shared bits of my day, tiny little glimpses into my mind with you……that blows me away and THANK YOU for allowing me to do so!

♫ soundtracking “World Spins Madly On” by The Weepies http://sdtk.fm/w7907E

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#sixseasonsandamovie
#nbccommunity
#troyandabed

Here’s something for you. Had a buddy text the other day complaining that he hasn’t gotten any hits on this singles hook up site. ZOMG why is ♫ soundtracking “Masquerade” by Berlin http://sdtk.fm/yeOGmY playing…

So I ask him, “how are you selling yourself?”
He proceeds to read the advert, I doze off, I hear a “are you there?” and I answer (I really did doze off or became distracted by something bright and shiny.)
That’s your problem…the advert is too long. This isn’t match.com or eharmony. Your goal is to get laid, yes? Well say what you want and this longs walks and favourite book “The Bible.” is shyte! Say what you want…. Well, we (I) trimmed the fat from the advert and made it say what he wanted. Well, let’s just say, he is as happy as a queer in Babylon (LOL, I’m having QAF flashbacks)

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What now????? ♫ soundtracking “Beautiful Drug (feat. Jana Andevska)” by @ThieveryCorpDC http://sdtk.fm/xFDxve

♫ soundtracking “Dancing With Myself” by Nouvelle Vague http://sdtk.fm/wCrhAf

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I ❤ the Avengers. Before this Ultimate universe, re-booted crap! THERE I SAID IT!!!!

well I think my work here is done…..

a pui tardi.

I’ll play myself out…♫ soundtracking “Day After Day” by Pretenders http://sdtk.fm/zWo586