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I am “sad.” I feel “sadness” in my heart. SAD not “depressed”

I stand here, looking out of the window, listening to Bent’s Swollen. I stand here thinking about how “sad” I am right now. Worry not, this isn’t an “Awwww poor baby” post. 😆

I am sad….
because, unless the bulk of humanity changes, we are doomed.
because I see fewer and fewer children in the out of doors, playing.
because I see people fight with themselves when deciding betwixt “right” and “wrong” when the choice is “easy.” Just do the right thing!
because those who need to be heard, who should be heard…aren’t heard.
because I am baffled about … just about everything.
because some where, some when – some one is cold, hungry, alone and afraid.
because I’ve not yet met a people whose technology would appear “magical” to me. (just seeing if you’re paying attention. Or am I?)

I am sad…
because of bloodshed over ….
pieces of metal
pieces of paper
how one group acknowledges the Supreme Being
who loves whom
football (American and European)
a pair of trainers
the latest designer fad
a perceived slight
a fight decades old, yet unresolved
because our respective government/rulers have forgotten that they “rule”/”lead” at the whim of the people. (With the exception of a few monarchies)

I am saddened because…
although there are a few people who “get it,” enough do not “get it.”
because as much as I welcome change, I dread the changes taking place in the world today.
because people just don’t get that…..(homage to A Fine Frenzy)

We were all one cell in the sea in the beginning.

Although I am saddened, I do believe that there is hope. LOL, I have faith in humans. I believe, that eventually they’ll do the right thing…..eventually. Let’s hope it won’t be too late.

Oh, I say “sad” not “depressed” because, I know that we can change. It is because of that knowledge that I’m not depressed.

Well, I’m needed in another place in time!

a pui tardi

Yeah, I AM of peace!


It’s been done!

Well, the last blog of 2011! What did I do today?







The artist!

East Atlanta Tattoo
1188-C Glenwood Ave SE
Atlanta, Ga 31316

ask for Amy, she’s a light touch and a huge Dolly Parton fan.

a pui tardi

Complications …

Why do we complicate the simple?

from my buddy — Muse (My Portfolio)

from the artists’ website..

“The resounding theme I like to explore in my art concerns the transformative nature of the medium and as such I am driven to work that I feel will fill a need. Currently, our world is torn apart by democratic and republican and capitalistic systems that are killing the planet and our collective humanity. Through philosophy, nature and storytelling I hope to do what I can to lead an example and connect people with solutions.”

Oz Thomas is an artist, poet and activist. He grew up in Western Maryland and studied drawing at a community college and animation at Vanarts. His current projects include various illustration projects and an edutainment animation project entitled “The Garden”. He is also busy learning Permaculture and Volunteering as a Master Naturalist.

for more of his work, please visit…

Wow, hummm, wow this is kinda toxic.. wow

WARNING: PROFANITY I use the “f” word a few times.

I guess I should be “pleased.” I got through the holidays and the new year…unscathed (not really, but I was able to force “happiness” which should not have to be forced). But, I should have known that it was too good to be true.

I can feel it.
Am I lucky?
At least I know when it is going to happen. The “normal” dreams are a precursor and then comes the feeling of “I just don’t give a fuck.” wow, wow, wow.

However, I have had a few “not normal” ones as well. One this morning, the original salon mates (Oz, Cathy and modi). LOL, Loreleila seated in the centre with Oz at her right and, I on the left..just sitting…conversing, writing, drawing, playing some type of game…then this woman…..with snow white hair… a few strands of black…just enough to see it….comes and decided that it is time for us to eat…she demands Oz have a slab of some creature and a giant glass of ale….then it gets fuzzy. But I do remember the end…she looked at us…those eyes….and reminded each of us that we must bring about change….somehow….it is up to us.

(Cathy, I guess she figured that we didn’t really need to eat because she focused on Oz’s dietary requirements. What’s up with that?)

Another “hint” the odd feelings that … Well that is a bit personal… Hehehehehe….. ARRRRGH.


All I want to do is go home.
All I want to do is to curl up and just sleep….a good year or two.
No, not sleep, just drift….

I am at the end of my rope.
No, not the suicidal end
I am tired of fighting
I am tired of being involved in the fights of others
I am tired of looking for answers to question that perhaps can not be answered
I am tired of screaming children AND adults

I sit here in the dark…waiting
Waiting for what
Who the hell knows
Lol, and who the hell defines what is sane for me
Ahh, they do
But who are “they”

Chaos and order
Jumbled thoughts
I think about the trees
The bay
The fact that I just got over a bloody FOUR DAY MIGRAINE
No job
No money (well that isn’t quite true)
No leads


We are the cause of this cold snap
The intensity, severity
How many people died last night because of us
Hell, how many anythings died last night because of us
We are killing ourselves….slowly and don’t seem to fucking care.

Live it up
Buy buy buy
Consume consume
Waste waste
Heat up the planet
Pollute the air
Contaminate the soil…the water

This kid is bitching because of his grades. Because his school system isn’t on a 10 point grade scale, his chances of getting into the school of his choice are diminished. Hummm, could not have anything to do with his 2.7 gpa

2.7 geez, a “high” C or “low” B. Back in the day…that was just unacceptable.

Study buddy.

Can’t make order in my head……

Right now it is like looking in a fun house mirror
The images are distorted, twisted
And I am not on anything, just sleep and whatever this is….

Drug combos…the bad ones, that came to me while thinking about Loreleila’s vlog/video. (I tried to upload the Concerta one, for some reason it wouldn’t. Who knows why)

I have been wronged by so many.

Exes who COULDN’T control their carnal needs.
Employers who are easily swayed by big tits and the promise of a hand job.
“Friends” who because of their general level of stupidity and ignorance are threatened.
The racist bitch who …. Oh my
I have been wronged by that ill bred, low born, clod. THE backstabing twit. The unlettered country oaf, who thinks that because she went to a now defunct trade school (with no accrediation mind you) decades ago that she is “highly qualified” yet, she can’t …. And now claims to be a writer. Bitch, you can’t construct a simple sentence.

The Christian who has condemed me to hell. GUESS WHAT BITCH, I AM IN HELL EVERY FUCKING DAY. THIS PLACE…..THIS IS HELL.

Wow, wow wow

We feel wronged because we just can’t believe that someone in whom we put some measure of trust could betray “hurt” us. Especially when we have not “hurt” them.

WAIT A BLOODY MINUTE……….. What if we did and we didn’t know it?


I’ve tried the Tao today…..just not working. Looked for my passages in RTO….nope…
And the other texts that usually provide me some measure of comfort… Nyet, nein, no ain’t working today.


I guess this is just supposed to be.
I know that I’ll rant, rave, break something, swear…but eventually balance will return.

But you know what, my greatest fear…other than being impaled (yeah odd, not being shot, poisoned….just impaled)…that I won’t come back and I am…..

Oh well, no need to worry about that until it happens.

There is no peace.

When I started this, it was dark out…the sun is rising

So we shall see, what crap will be served up today.

I guess I need to go to the head. I have to tinkle. I will wait until the last possible minute.


I am really fucked guys….. Lol, but, right now I don’t care.

Oh, have I told you ….thanks?

the WILL and the WORD

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Arm chair journal: updates and stuff

Hallo salon mates,

Ok an update. Still haven’t found work. The whole unemployment thing is a loooong drag. It can be a bit deflating to go on interview after interview to be told that you are "overqualified;" you have an impressive resume.. Etc., ok if that is true, then hire me.

But I am faced with the whole, what do I want to do with my life thing. Another crossroads, geez.

I am reminded of a piece by Ozjthomas, "Lost."

Hey, something occured to me. What if being "lost" is where we are supposed to be?

Humm, still can’t find the energy to vlog. I’ve viewed a few, but well, I can’t even get my thoughts focused to go before camera.

Been splitting my time betwixt David and his family and Stacy and Michelle’s family. The little breaks have been a welcome restbit. Did I mention that Halloween was a bit disappointing? There weren’t as many kids out.

I’ve thrown off my sleep pattern. Unfortunately, I mixed caffeine laced tea with decaf and well the caf won. It did not dawn on me until the other day/night when I was up until 0300.

Wait a minute. Rewind to the job thing. It has been suggested the I dumb down my resume. Humm, I think I shall have to research this.

I’ve also been spending time with my cameras. But I’ve discovered that I like taking pics of the sky and of water. I think I will attach a few to this posting.

Adopting a healthy lifestyle is another goal. So, I am going to attempt to quit smoking (again) and exercise more. I am also going to increase my meditation frequency. I am going to go to at least 4 (yeah, I know using the numeral isn’t AP style, sue me) times a day.

Working on my mental health as well.

Ok, I am working on Drew, both inside and out. We will see how that goes. Oh, an idea. At some point, I am going to take before and after pics. You know the kind, "Drew with a gut, Drew without a gut." those types of pictures.

I watched an "old" version of "War or the Worlds" the other day. It was a 3 hr film. A bad (technically) 3 hr film, but I had invested so much time (waiting for it to improve) that I refused to turn it off. But it didn’t improve.

Watched "The Day the Earth Stood Still," both the 2000 something version and the original. I liked the cheesiness of the original and the high tech of the newer. I didn’t really care for the kid in the newer version.

And finally, watched TLA releasing’s "Dog Tags." An odd little independent film. It is an interesting little film.

Books: Carson McCullers, "The Heart is a Lonley Hunter."

Received my bracelet and choker from fukuvrymch (part of a barter). I forgot to tell her how skinny my arms are. hehehehehe

Nothing on the music scene. This weekend I think I am going to download some music from the Orient. I am still working on putting together some original pieces.

Well, I think I am finished for now.

Ciao ciao

the WILL and the WORD

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I was looking for horoscopes and found these and decided…..

geez, well yeah I am these things and more

This is just …wow!

and these things too, with the exception of the “perfect in every way” hehe hummm

Kinda reminds me of Wukdar’s YT avatar (hummm)
this reminds me of a Preston creation

these images were found on Google images…

I am just going with the flow today….that is all I can do, it is all anyone can do!

Have I thanked you guys and gal….. for being YOU? If not, THANK YOU!

YOU KNEW this was leading somewhere…YOU KNEW!!!

When the moon is in the Seventh House
And Jupiter aligns with Mars
Then peace will guide the planets
And love will steer the stars

This is the dawning of the age of Aquarius
The age of Aquarius

Harmony and understanding
Sympathy and trust abounding
No more falsehoods or derisions
Golding living dreams of visions
Mystic crystal revelation
And the mind’s true liberation

When the moon is in the Seventh House
And Jupiter aligns with Mars
Then peace will guide the planets
And love will steer the stars

This is the dawning of the age of Aquarius
The age of Aquarius

[Extra verses from London 1993 production]

As our hearts go beating through the night
We dance unto the dawn of day
To be the bearers of the water
Our light will lead the way

We are the spirit of the age of Aquarius
The Age of Aquarius

Harmony and understanding
Sympathy and trust abounding
Angelic illumination
Rising firey constellation
Travelling our starry courses
Guided by the cosmic forces
O care for us

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