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Wow, it’s almost the end…

Ok, one way to make up for lost blogging days….post your “drafts.”
Yeah, I think I’ve posted four or five blogs left on or is it “in” “draft” status. Of course, I believe that most of the were combined in another blog, but as I said in one, “oh well.”

I’m just pleased “TO BE.”.

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Now off to read some statistical analyses. Type to you next year. 👽👽👽👽😜

a pui tardi

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Hey! Well, I was going to…

…gripe about something. But now I can’t remember.

…share a thought or two about some things that have been knocking about in my head. But, I’ve realised that those thoughts need a little more knocking before I can share.

…finish a vlog that “needs” to be finished, but I just don’t feel like it.

…move, delete, compress even more files. How in the blue hades does one fill a t.b. so quickly? What’s after a terabyte?

Oh well…a pui tardi!

E ‘stato un po ‘. and a few things have changed…here

Humm,

I try to post that whenever and wherever I can.

Bear with me, I’ve not worked from the desktop in a while. The feel of an actual keyboard is …odd.

Because I love Domo-kun.

OK, here we go…

Closure. Can we talk?

Yesterday, I had a conversation with a friend (we’ll call Timmy) who expressed that he wished that his friend (Billy) would talk about, a dark place in his life.

So, you know me. I asked,”What purpose would that serve him? Why would Billy wish to think about that period? Why would he want to re-live that? He has learned from it. He has become a much better person. He is actually happy; and, he has apparently moved on. Hell, he is thriving now as opposed to then. So why would he need to discuss that time?”

Now, here is the key, I think.

“Because I want him to discuss it so that I can have some closure.”

I am really startled. “Just why do you need closure on Billy’s problem? I am really curious to hear your answer to this.

Because, (reasons aren’t really relevant) but to sum it up. Timmy feels that because he went through those things with Billy, and that things were said about Timmy that “just weren’t true,” yada yada ya – ex-chetra (yeah, I know, watch Community)…..

“OK, do you not think Timmy has considered the source? Has he not apologised repeatedly? Has he not given you the ‘credit’ you’re due?”

I see where this is going so I raise a finger and say…

What you want, is to talk about YOU.
What YOU want is to talk about how YOU feel/felt.
What YOU want is to be the centre of attention.

If YOU need to discuss it, why don’t YOU talk to a therapist?

I thought you did those things out of concern, love and affection. Not to have something to bring up everytime you have an opportunity just so that you can say what you’ve done, and how you helped….

Subject changed….

So “closure” is it really for the “victim/survivor” or their “friends?”

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How long…

does anyone else have trouble recalling past blogs? Did I do this one here, on perhaps on YouTube?

Query: realistically, how long can a person blame their parents/caregivers for the “crap” of their lives?

I ask this because, lately I’ve been hearing “I’m this way because my mom didn’t do this.”

“I’m this way because my dad was never home.”

I am a bit bothered by this. I’m asking myself, “What about … PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY?”

It seems to me that’s what is lacking in the world today. We choose to place blame at the feet of others as opposed to “man-ing up” and saying that we are because of decisions I made. My life “sucks” not because my mom didn’t buy me a pair of trainers or

distilled into a few simple sentences….the past few years have been a reboot…i hope…parte ho finito!

and to sum all of the less than helpful thing that have happened…I’ve discovered (thanks to Iris G. and I guess,  Oprah Winfrey) that..

Forgiveness is giving up the possibility of a better past. –Unknown

It is as simple as that.  Well, it is really two-fold. I must remember that… “Forgiveness is giving up the possibility of a better past.

I must also remember that…

“Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word happy would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. It is far better take things as they come along with patience and equanimity.” – Carl Jung

and that by…

Knowing your own darkness is the best method for dealing with the darknesses of other people.” – Carl Jung

and lastly, you are familiar with my mantra….. aren’t you?

🙂 so it was “five-fold.”

a pui tardi

It is going to be one of those days guys and gals!



Compassion is characterized as promoting the aspect of allaying suffering. Its function resides in not [enduring] others’ suffering. It is manifested as non-cruelty. Its proximate cause is to see helplessness in those overwhelmed by suffering. It succeeds when it makes cruelty subside, and it fails when it produces sorrow. – Buddhaghosa, “Visuddhimagga”


More public transpo thoughts…

Humm, read a bit from Oz this morning. And once again makes me wonder if we are all going through some type of radical change- a re-focus of thought and purpose. This psychic told me that I was going through a “transit phase myself. To become something greater than you are now.” Humm, perhaps I should investigate this further. I do know that there is something going on internally. Something that on some occasions shocks me to the core.

6:21 am: oh, I am thinking about posting a “why I blog” piece. Have to think about that. Not the piece itself.: how to present it. Nowadays, how to present a piece seems to be a “big deal.” I want to start phasing out the use of my image…perhaps that is vanity. I am getting fat! LOL!

6:39 am: continuing with my penance and task. I will continue to treat everyone as an extension of myself. I will also make every effort not to dwell in less than helpful discussions and conversations.